Recently I was reading my devotional book for this year “My Utmost for His Highest” by Oswald Chambers and he mentions that there are dim regions of our personality that we cannot get at but the Holy Spirit works in. Going on to mention Psalm 139 he states that the Psalmist implies: ‘Thou art God of the early mornings, the God of the late at nights, the God of the mountain peaks, and the God of the sea; but my God, my soul has further horizons that the early mornings, deeper darkness than the nights of the earth, higher peaks than any mountain peaks, greater depths than any sea in nature – Thou Who art the God of all these, be my God. I cannot reach to the heights or the depths, there are motives I cannot trace, dreams I cannot get at – my God, search me out.’
As I pondered the idea of the vastness of my soul and God being Lord of it I wrote…..
The God of it all….. the furthest horizons of my soul.
For the deepest darkest places of my soul, You alone bring Light.
To the heights of Hope, You draw me there.
The dreams that feel out of reach, You hold securely in Your hands.
The vastness of my grief, You are the God of every ounce of pain.
For every doubt, You bring revelation and Truth.
In my weakness, You lend my Your strength.
When I feel lost, You remind me that You have the perfect plan.
The God of it all….. You alone Lord know the depth of my deception.
For every mistake I have made, You alone bring freedom and healing.
To the greatest dreams I can ever imagine, You bring clarity and fulfilment.
The promises that feel out of reach, You assure me that they WILL come to pass.
The path forward seems blocked, but You are the God who opens up the way.
For my trembling anxiety, You bring Peace and calm.
In my wonderings, You lend me Your patience to wait.
When I feel joy, I smile for I know that it comes from You!
Light to the darkness
I am encouraged that although there has been a great depth of deception in my life, seasons where I have made mistake after mistake, misstep after misstep…… Times when I have done wrong things that I don’t even remember, its ok because God is at work in the vastness of my soul, bringing His Light and healing to the deepest darkest recesses. I know this because of the promise that we have been rescued COMPLETELY from the tyrannical rule of darkness and transferred in the Kingdom of Light, the realm of Jesus! (Colossians 1:13)
My dreams are secure
The dreams that feel out of reach, the path forward that seems block, I take heart knowing that my hopes and dreams for the future are indeed held securely in God’s hands. I cling to the promise that I am in God’s thoughts, He knows the plans for my future, they are good plans for peace and well-being, not for disaster. I am Called to a faith-filled future, a marvellous destiny, a way forward that has been carefully planned out in great detail, a beautiful adventure is laid out before me that is glistening with Hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)
From mourning to joy
The vastness of the grief I have experienced over the past few decades is hard to describe and there have been times where it has driven me to the very depths of despair, but to know that that God is Lord of every ounce of my pain, WOW! What a revelation. The Psalmist beautifully describes a transformation that takes place revealing how God breaks through our wailing, our grief, and transforms it into ecstatic praise. We were laden down, almost unable to move from the heaviness of our sorrow, when suddenly we are able to dance and sing with delight reigning in our hearts as the sad heaviness of mourning is lifted and we are doused with joy! (Psalm 30:11)
God of it all
Today I wanted to encourage you that the God of it all knows you and loves you. He is the God of the furthest horizons and the deepest darkest places of your soul. He is the God of the dreams that feel out of reach, the promises yet unfulfilled. He is the God of the vastness of your grief, the Lord of every ounce of pain. He is the God of every doubt that has been, that dwells now in your mind, and any to come. He is the God of every weakness that racks your body. He is the God of every mistake you have ever made. He is the God of anxiety, depression and despair. I pray that blessed assurance floods you today, that God brings revelation and Truth, Peace and calm. That He brings clarity and fulfilment to your promises and dreams. Where you feel weak I ask that God lends you His unending strength. May God bring freedom, healing and joy to you today. Amen!
Many blessings,
Keona